Uncharted sands

There it is, his everlasting desert. A desert with tales of ancient deeds aged in the wisdom of the sand, forgotten in the pain of the fresh desert wind.

He kept on moving forward, never looking back. He knew that back there nothing’s left, at least not for him. All the symbolic of this desolate realm capture his inner condition. His presence, even everything he had represented as far as he can tell, is hidden somewhere undreamed in this undiscovered landscape, on this forgotten world. He walked persistently on the sand, despite the friction, he felt as there was no ground beneath him in this region sculpted for no humans.

In this place he wasn’t accompanied by any color, there also weren’t neither darkness nor light left for his tired blue gaze. He kept on grabbing for the mystic which lied before him, curious by nature, and yet unthinkable and unknown to its very core, despite eons of knowledge gathered in his ancient life. He opened his senses to receive the desolation and the totality in silence surrounding him. This tranquility was a cherished gift to harbor, a serenity which had incorporated itself deep within the bones. From the core within there was glitter with an ember of a secret sun projecting itself outward, through the pores of the skin.

This unnatural emergence had brought back the freshness in his breath and the sparkle in his deep blue eyes. He felt alive again in this nonplace, right here, amongst the stars and all the the secret moons… in his kingdom made of sand, a kingdom of one.

Architects of our prisons

Life forms never require order, they live outside of it. Life by definition is a self regulating process manifested through evolution and its tools, such as: environmental linking, rhythms of evolution, adaptation through cybernetic feedback with its positive and negative rule. Life in essence thrives in chaos.

Human race is a typical example. We adore loops, in cycles we find identification. Our society and mutual interactions always lead away from order, and into chaos. When exiting turbulence we are governed by positive cybernetic feedback, developing relations, bettering society, improving living standards, refine economy etc. And at some point our relations break, and we’re governed by negative cybernetic feedback, creating turmoil around us, when we destroy what we’ve built, even ourselves.

We are entropy of reality, a surreal natural phenomenon. Our views are anthropocentric, they’re beyond logic, beyond understanding. Our narcissism is authentic and in our roots.

We show affinity for drifting, since drifting is a human concept. New experiences are understood in conformity with the old ones, we like to perceive knowable ideas and events, creating inertia not only habits, but also in thinking as well.

Our dreams for future and eternity are constructs of our past and present. All this vastness encircling from beyond, all this depth within, all these souls breathing all around; they can be overwhelming every now and then, confuse us at times.

And we go even further, we like to create illusions. Mind constructs designed to delude ourselves. We compare ourselves to perfection, since our self love is vast. We never chase it, perfection is yet another dissipation of reality. A ruin built from an ancient one.

These old habits of ours create painful addiction, so seductive by nature, so much intoxicating, oh so very destructive. A familiar entrapment, closest form of behavior.

Cages made of freedom, contradiction in terms – us.

Discoveries await

Nature exists continuously in every direction, unbroken, as a single space-time continuum. It’s a cohesion of temporal and thermodynamic events, according to what we know so far, governed by four basic forces, each of them distributed unevenly in different parts of nature. This altogether complex system is void of order and deprived of symmetry. Nature is constituted of countless processes, guided by bifurcations and evolution, causality, the uncertainty principle and the arrow of time. These processes are irreversible, and as such, they pose a serious challenge in understanding them or predicting their state of origin and their final form of evolution. As such, irreversibility and uncertainty are core attributes of nature, firmly nested into its origin (if there is any) and its evolution. They are defining our thinking and understanding of nature.

Our observation of nature extends truly far, we’ve designed technological tools which assist and complement our sight. We’ve seen objects and processes which defy our models and theories. We guess how it all started within primordial singularity, a null point consisted of dense matter with close to infinite energy. But we can’t pinpoint it in time. We think that nature is bigger than the one we see all around, but we don’t have a clue how big it is or does it have any border. We see acceleration of matter everywhere around us which we can’t fully explain, behavior which opposes the concept of growing rate of entropy. By observing gravitation we can’t fully account for the entire matter in nature, it seems that most of it is not visible at all.

From our homeworld we’re observing the totality of our reality. The further we look in the distance, the further we go in the past. We are trying to understand the big picture, trying to understand how it all started, and how it will end. Here we encounter a paradox, the Demon of Marquis de Laplace. He’s sitting outside time and space, observing the entire reality. He can rewind it into the past, and move it fast forward into the future. But he’s not part of the reality, he should be outside of it. Because of the irreversibility and uncertainty of our nature, there’s no place with divine attributes in it, from where we can observe the totality of our reality. Nor we can say with certainty how it all began, nor how will it end, if it ends. Physics and cosmology are not exact sciences, they’re evolution of thought sculpted from probabilities.

This task is so much difficult on us, since not only we have to pose the questions, we need to answer them ourselves. We are truth seekers since forever, guided by our curiosity and quest for knowledge. The calling roars within us, and we answer it.